As renovations of the halls begin to end in our building, I sigh. Here we are beginning to start packing: we’re moving in a week or so, I haven’t kept count.
The halls look wonderful, clean and sterile, the atmosphere of the hospital I visit everyday is reminded to me. I laugh; what irony, I work in one do I have to really live in one too. But these are just the hallways, not the inside of my home. Welcome is here, love is here, comfort is here. Its not a palace by any means. But there is the essence of our past in every dust bunny, every scuff mark. I’m not painting a pretty picture here.
But does it matter, I love this place. It faces the soutwest and the evening sun sets like a bonfire during an ecilpse. Often at times believeing I can take a photo of this, have I stood with our non-digital 24 roller. At 12 that seemed plausible, the sun should look perfect in this. I was misled. The photos were all smears of colour with dark spots everywhere. The parental unit scolded for what it was worth.
Now digging up those wishes to capture the western sun startle me. I look over it and wonder where I was to be standing here. The window is here, the western sun still sets ablaze the periphery of the earth, but sadly or unsadly I have changed. Isn’t that the honest truth? I will miss this place. It has seen all my greatest joys and failures. I have spent close to 12 years growing up here. I have changed as a person, but my essence still exists.
So wherever the sun exists, I will look up to it and imagine those colourful photos, me and my home.
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June 20, 2008 at 4:20 pm
zainab
(:
.. and the new place that you move to, you will make that beautiful too — clutter it with love — the dust bunnies, the scuff marks, et al.
and yes, sunsets and faces always look better in our eyes; cameras never see what we see.
June 20, 2008 at 7:37 pm
iffat
oddly enough, i’m working on a post on cleaning, packing up, and moving.
hey, i’d like to see the smeared sunset photos if you still have them.
June 21, 2008 at 12:49 am
Geetha
definitely…iffs I need your blog site…:)
June 22, 2008 at 2:37 am
zainab
put them up, the smeared sunsets.
June 22, 2008 at 6:10 pm
kk
thanks for sharing this. home is always a beautiful place.
June 22, 2008 at 8:57 pm
Geetha
awwwn shucks…thanks aamir also sunsets will be up as soon as I move…they are packed and I’m not ready to unpack!
June 22, 2008 at 10:23 pm
adnan.
i’m loving how this is categorized (or tagged) under “Masala Dosa”.
June 24, 2008 at 6:52 pm
Geetha
L:DL…how could I not, this deserves to be named after my fav-ou-rite food! yummm…